
It has been quite some time since I have posted anything on here. Looking at the main page, there is a lot to change. My last post was... June 8, 2010, and here it is now, February 16, 2011. If there was anyone peaking in on this blog, they have probably given up by now. I have been busy, not here, not behind the camera, not exploring the landscape- I've been hitting the books. School is what has brought me back to the blog.
Photography is on the back burner. In early September of last year I started classes full time at the community college near where I grew up. I knew that (especially with some convincing from my loving parents) I needed more education. I knew that I needed a career, not a job. I needed something with frills like health insurance, but being who I am, I had to figure out something I would be passionate about. Of course I need a decent paycheck, who doesn't? But I also had to figure out something that I could put some heart into.
When a couple of people close to me became ill with chronic conditions, I began to research their ailments and realized that I liked learning about that kind of stuff. Spending notable time in medical settings I could not help but to ponder what it would be like to work there.
Just as an artist works with his or her medium- a painter's canvas, a photographer's viewfinder, a weaver's loom... thinking back about it now, that's how all the doctors were looking at the people I cared about. They were looking for answers. The good ones, the ones determined to get it right, they had the same sort of restlessness of the soul until they knew what was wrong. I don't know how I saw it, maybe in their body language or tone of voice. I knew what that felt like. I also remember seeing it in every person who was passionate about their art. The way that they looked at their works in progress, caring so sincerely, getting closer towards their vision, but restless to find the answer.
Being practical, I knew that if I was to start over, an education for a job in the medical career might be a good way to go. What would be more interesting for someone who loves to take pictures and learn about health that to work with medical imaging? It was almost a revelation to the questions I had been getting asked over and over- how could I make a living out of taking pictures? why do you want to take pictures when the first thing people don't want in tough economic times is art?
So there I was, September, back in school, determined. Now I am in my second semester.
I have to be honest. When I was told that I had to take English Composition 1, I was irritated. I love writing, I love reading- especially the informal casual kind of stuff like my buddy's blogs or the parts of magazines that are mostly pictures with a handful of informative or inspiring stuff on the page with them. Hence the previous postings of my work. What it was that I found irritating is that I have a Bachelor's degree with a minor in Literature. English Comp 1, ENG101... "It's a degree requirement for the this program and it's not on your transcript," is pretty much what every advisor said. "But I have a
BFA with a minor in literature, I have had writing published in magazines, I have great SAT scores..." It did not matter.
My first thoughts were how colleges are just businesses.
Their goal is to make a profit off of me. One more class for me is more money in the bank for them. Instead of fighting it, I knew I would just have to go with the flow. I promised to keep an open mind, and the practical part of me knew for sure: of course I would learn something new.
The first day of class, the go-with-the-flow and have-an-open-mind part of me was proven right. My professor said all that I needed to hear when she was telling us a list of reasons why we might need this class someday. "What if you need to e-mail your boss?" Huh. If I ever did have my dream job, I would probably want to know how to perfect that. What about all those research papers for the big medical classes down the road? That needs some tweaking too. Art college literature professors were probably not as worried about
MLA as future professors could be.
Last night we talked about blogs. I fondly thought of all the good times I have had making my little posts, more picture than word. For our assignment, we can follow one or create one. So why not make this one mine again? I've already realized that it will be an
excuse to write out my thoughts, and an
excuse to take a few pictures.